Tiny whiny me...

WE broke up 13 days ago and at exactly 6 days after the breakup, he asked the girl to be his girlfriend. Yes i found out he was dating this girl behind my back and he was so smitten with her. And that girl is a bitch too cos she was aware that my ex had a girlfriend. If you are a decent girl, would you have gone on several dates with an attached guy? To make things worse, my ex told her a few weeks back he's quite fond of her. Obviously she's a bitch who out to snatch him away. And she did it! Well, good luck to the bitch and bastard couple.

I was fuming when i found out about him dating this girl and initiated the breakup. He was all teary (so was i) and said he couldn't bear to give up our 4 years relationship etc. Begged me not to throw away all the stuff he gave me and asked me to wait for him to think through about what he want for 1 month. He just simply full of shit and only trying to make things look nice for the people around us to see. I regretted not slapping him. Damn

Felt sooooooo cheated and foolish when i knew he asked her to be his girlfriend. Any good feelings i have towards him was killed at that instant. I hate him, and will always do so. You might think you are a player but you are just crap. You are a big time liar and hypocrites!

I was getting close to a co-worker and sort of admire him. All along i thought he was single so i was so bummed when i saw his girlfriend picking him up after work yesterday. Crap, the rest of the day just sucks. I have no one to blame cos in the first place i shouldn't even be admiring him, and i shouldn't assume he's single. Today at work was so weird, i did not really dare to look at him in the face. Felt sooooo embarrassed. But luckily, no one else knows. But i'm fine now, getting over him. I'm just a silly girl

 My life is changing as i've been accepted by the university. I will be moving on and so will my boyfriend. Feel kinda lost as i don't know if we can survive the 2 years. I will be away in university and he will be serving the nation. I have this thoughts/feelings that can creeping into me ever since last year. I want to get married young and have my own family. Definately not now, but i hope so in another 4-5 years time. By that time, I would have finished my studies and started working for around 2 years. As for my boyfriend, he will have just completed the national service and starting on his degree. This just sucks. If we are still together by then, it will take us another 3-4 years more before we can get married. I will be so old by then, nearly 30.

Why do i want to get married at age of 25/26? I guess i want to have my own family, something i can proudly call my own. A sense of belonging and of course, have my own children. But for now, that dream seems very far away...

I wonder have you ever encounter friends who behave as though he/she is mr-know-it-all? I was msn-ing with this classmate and i nearly blew my top. It's fine if you wanna share your experiences but it doesn't mean that you can put down other people's experiences and ideas and insist that yours are the right ones.

It's very annoying when you wanan share your own opinions and experience and this fellow just kept on going on and on, and said "no, it's not that way" when you started talking. Being enthusiatics and know-it-all is entirely different thing. I got so piss off that i just let him ramble on and on. i only replied him every 2 mins. crap..  yeah, so as i am blogging this, my msn is still very active now..haha

Major turn off..just shut up!

He had been working these few days and i know he is tired. I appreciate the fact that he called up as soon as he woke up today. And i was looking forward to our date tomorrow. I even told him i am planning to whip up a dinner for him. But when he called me just now, he said he would drop by tomorrow late morning so i could cook for him. That really pissed me off. I said "dinner dinner dinner", not "lunch lunch lunch". And he doesn't know why am i getting so upset for.

I haven't seen him for days and i really want to spend some time with him and cook something nice for him. Just a cosy dinner. I don't know if i am getting too senstive but he hasn't been listening to what i said. Sometimes when i'm talking to him about where we are going, our friends and he can simply back "yeap, sure", "ah i see". And when i asked him what i was talking about, his face will go blank. I seriously felt like i'm talking to a wall.

Or has the past 4 years been too long for both of us? That we both have changed from the person we knew each other 4 years back, and what we want and expect now are totally different. We might clicked back then, but now, the poles are drifting apart

I was flipping through the magazine when i came across this article aboout a woman whose husband visited prostitues on their honeymoon. I'm seriously shocked when i read this. How could any man ever treat your wife like that! The wife got mad at first but eventually And for their marriage, the wife and the child is staying at her mother's house from monday-thursday and weekend is spent with the husband. So during the weekdays, he is free to hook up with any girls he wants and bong his head out. It's pretty dynsfunctional.

Seriously, how could anyone have sex with someone you don't even know? Well at least to me, i can't imagine myself getting turn on by a stranger. What about unwanted pregnancies, STDs and HIV virus? I'm already worrying whenever my period is late. I think i will be going crazy if i have a one night stand.